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Monday, June 23, 2008
I just cried. Fion only came a few days in june like less den 7days and today she shot 392..
I..... trained for like everyday.... what i get is 393.... she..... took liyan's placing.....
liyan is reserve... so... I'm so fucked up today enuf already.
Luckily i went home earlier, but before that i .... heard something that make me fuck up..
Coach Zhang actually told miss chan that she wants fion and reina in the main team.
What's so fucking good about them.. bunch of fuckers.
How the fuck they seduce BOTH guys and WOMAN ( Coach ZHANG ).

What makes me so... well.. i dunno...
I trained for everyday and hardly improve my score. Fion only came a few days in JUNE.
A FEW DAYS ONLY. .......
Im weak for what i can say.
Whether to be happy for my team or.. what..

haiz........
I am a failure.
A poor girl.
A stupid girl.
A noob.
Knows nothing and spoils everything.
Studies sucks, shooting sucks, gaming sucks.
Everything i sucks in.
I have no talent in anything.
seriously..

nick... hais.... im so sad...
what i can do is only email you and see you at safra but still not yet dare to talk to you..
how am i suppose to do in future.. wait til next year june to see you again..
well.. i'll look forward to 2 years later.


& Love ain't is about sacrifice