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Saturday, March 14, 2009
Grr. I wonder if i died will anyone even bother to care or die with me?
What is this.. She told everyone that she's sick when I'm the one who got sick 1st who keep sneezing all along though out the lessons..... When she gots fever and everyone concern about her... Who bothers about me? Except Ryan... I could feel his concern about me but.... its fake somehow.. I wonder.

I cant help it when i felt this kind of jealousy with friends. Zzz
What am i becoming.. Worse of all.. She's my good friend...
People doesn't bother about me because I did not told them? No.
I was beside her all along sneezing and my face I know it's not right isnt it......
All attention was on her...
Sigh.. What is this...?

ET and GT cares alot about her becuz they like her. Well..
They watch her from far apart... What about me?
Does anyone watches me from far too? Ryan? He dun even knows what he should do now......
Patch....? "dunno... er.. not sure.. no."
Where does all these misery suddenly came from..?

Who is this badminton girl? KB.
I seriously dun like badminton ppl uh.
Fuck them all la.

Im jealous. Yet im guilty for feeling jealous.
No one in the Earth every knows how i feel... about ...............

I love you. and i mean it.
I hate losing u. I hate it when your not around me.
I can't stand the pain that your not with me..

Why...? If you dun wanna patch back..... why still.. flirt with me? And allowed me to flirt with u?
I just wish to end my life here.
It's so emtpy.. I can't find anything for me to live on!
Shooting? I've lost interest.
Dancing? I've got no money and time plus parents dun allow?
Boyfriend? I've lost him.
Friends? I think I lost them too.
Good friends? I think their not close to me anymore.
Best friends? I dunno where are they.
Family? Im alone.

Just let me die already.


& Love ain't is about sacrifice